Trust, Genuineness, Vulnerability, so on and so forth.

Vulnerability, trust, genuiness.

Sometimes I think that genuineness needs to be taken out of my vocabulary. I use it often, because everything in my craves and desires genuineness. However, I think that I am turning a corner, I think that people are NOT genuine when they have a guard up. Often times when they have a guard up, its because they have been hurt, broken, shaken.

I find it hard to be fully vulnerable and genuine when trust has been broken, when I personally have been hurt. I think with any relationship when there has been a rift... it not only causes a rift in that one relationship, but begins to affect the other relationships around.

How does one get past this point though? Past the point that trust is broken, it takes time to get back to that place, and is it really ever reachable?

I have written about 3 different blogs, planning to post, and then I revert back.. to keep the guard up. Its not because I dont want to be genuine, but because I have been hurt. I am getting back to the place of trust. I am working toward that safe place again. I dont like walls, I dont like guards. I crave genuineness, I desire the real deal.

I dont really have a conclusion, but this is where I am at. This is what I have for now.
Disclaimer: (I know these are supposed to go at the beginning) but take this with a grain of salt. Its not to be over thought or analyzed. This is more of me just processing, and trying to open back up.