Trust, Genuineness, Vulnerability, so on and so forth.

Vulnerability, trust, genuiness.

Sometimes I think that genuineness needs to be taken out of my vocabulary. I use it often, because everything in my craves and desires genuineness. However, I think that I am turning a corner, I think that people are NOT genuine when they have a guard up. Often times when they have a guard up, its because they have been hurt, broken, shaken.

I find it hard to be fully vulnerable and genuine when trust has been broken, when I personally have been hurt. I think with any relationship when there has been a rift... it not only causes a rift in that one relationship, but begins to affect the other relationships around.

How does one get past this point though? Past the point that trust is broken, it takes time to get back to that place, and is it really ever reachable?

I have written about 3 different blogs, planning to post, and then I revert back.. to keep the guard up. Its not because I dont want to be genuine, but because I have been hurt. I am getting back to the place of trust. I am working toward that safe place again. I dont like walls, I dont like guards. I crave genuineness, I desire the real deal.

I dont really have a conclusion, but this is where I am at. This is what I have for now.
Disclaimer: (I know these are supposed to go at the beginning) but take this with a grain of salt. Its not to be over thought or analyzed. This is more of me just processing, and trying to open back up.

Prayer Requests

As some of you may know, I have been working in Admissions part time over the summer. Recently I have been calling future dorm students just to touch base about orientation and talk with them a bit more. When I ask if there is anything that needs to be prayed over, I get the same response and need:


To be reconnected with God and draw closer to him. Conquer sin and hard areas in their lives that have been hindering them from walking in freedom.


I wanted to just pass this message along to you guys so that we can start praying for these girls before they get here. Its also exciting, and such an honor and privileged that we get to be apart of their lives in this kind of way! A specific prayer request I had gotten was from a girl named Lauren who is needing help finding a worship team for a camp coming up and is having a hard time finding volunteers!


Thanks Friends!